March 2011
3 posts
arielnicole- replied to your post: arielnicole- replied to your post:Everyone in…
The only advice I can give is to stay away from people who have a negative impact on your life (easier said than done I know). You are such a bright, kind, caring, amazing young woman and you don’t deserve to feel like that
Gahhh! Thank you Ariel XD You really are way too nice. I guess you are right though,...
arielnicole- replied to your post:Everyone in high school is only concerned about themselves.
It doesn’t end with high school either.
I am going to go insane. I can’t handle it. I’ve never been one to do that but that causes me to be the one that is used and abused. People cause me to lose faith.
Everyone in high school is only concerned about...
They just want to survive and push themselves forward.
September 2010
7 posts
You will never make a lick of sense to me.
You are the definition of stupid.
It’s official. I am becoming a hermit.
Life is ridiculous, but it is so amazing.
A whole day has gone by and no one has tried to...
This gives me a great feeling.
All these picture of couples make me miss Mike.
Great. Now I am sexually frustrated.
I don't think I'll ever be completely happy with...
I am still trying.
I always get extremely excited for the future and...
I am afraid of always being stuck here.
August 2010
2 posts
No longer being a virgin isn't that much...
I just sort of feel depressed because it’s like he can move on and I can’t.
Why don’t other guys like me?
Friends with benefits should be interesting…
Sexy time today? Hell yes.
Dose that make me a slut?
Probably.
I don’t give a shit anymore.
June 2010
3 posts
I hate being sick.
I don't mean to push you away.
I'm sorry I asked if everyone was okay because...
I guess…
April 2010
10 posts
I know I'm only second rate compared to her. I...
Reasons why a guy wouldn't/shouldn't date me:
I’m not pretty.
I should really lose a few pounds.
I have braces.
I have disgusting teeth.
I have acne.
I bite my nails.
I swear.
I call people weird names.
I laugh too loud when things become awkward.
I get jealous.
I don’t trust other easily.
I talk too much.
I have large groups of friends.
I cry often.
I like to read.
I like to hang out.
I’m needy.
I become...
I know we just broke up a week ago, but I have a...
I’m a bitch, but this is how I deal.
I used to be jealous because my best friends had...
It makes my relationship seem like a disappointment. I make such high expectations. Cute little things that he doesn’t do and I wish he did. I hold it against him.
I don’t know if we’ll reach that level of love and understanding, but I want to.
I don’t want just a physical relationship. I want him to be able to talk to me the way James talks to Elizabeth. But I’m...
You piss me off so much because you treat me...
i don’t know what i want.
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I'm a jealous bitch.
I see the way you treat her and I get so jealous....
Why the fuck is our relationship not nearly as...
Oh yeah it’s because you like her more.
And we’re not cute.
I worry about our relationship alot. I worry...
It’s driving me insane.
This tumblr is going to become sexual fast.
Last week I had an amazing dream that Mike was fingering me.
Last night I dreamed that we had sex every where, and it was wonderful.
I hate these tormenting dreams.
I can’t have this. I really can’t. My mental state can’t cope with the side effects.
March 2010
9 posts
I'm ignoring your texts so you can taste your own...
Even though I doubt you’ll even notice.
I wish that you wanted to hang out with me more...
I love doing things with you, and that's scary...
I fucking hate you sometimes. You are so god damn...
You honestly are. I mean he pours his heart out to you and asks you out. FOR THE FOURTH TIME IN THE PAST FIVE YEARS.
He should have moved on after the first time, but he wanted to hold onto you. He wanted to date you. HE FUCKING LOVED YOU.
But no. You say no each and every time. You say you’re not ready for a relationship, that he’s a great guy but he deserves more, that you...
I forgot what it was like to speak and not be...
I like this feeling.
You deserve more than this. You deserve more than...
But I hope to god that you don’t leave me.
My friends disappoint me.
“If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you...”
– (via thescarlettlove) (via nearproximity) (via caitianne) (via beating) (via youdeservemore)
February 2010
14 posts
I think I need to get away from him.
I’m getting too attached. I don’t want to like him this much.
I wasn’t supposed to feel like this.
Detailed post again; ignore.
We did things again. Of course we did, I mean I have no parents.
I hate the fact that I love it, because I’m going to be a mess once it’s gone.
So he came again, whatever, and then he was like shit I have to go. and I’m like fuck. you did this monday too. and he’s like my mom doesn’t know where I am. And I’m like okay fine. Bye. I wanted us to take a nap...
The thing is I don't really feel depressed or...
I feel empty and unmotivated. I don’t want to do anything.
I don’t even want to cry.
I am lost.
I don't even know how to talk about this.
Because I can’t. There are no words for my emotions. There are no feelings. No adjectives. No nouns. No verbs. There is nothing. NOTHING to describe the way I feel right now.
Nothing.
I feel depressed and I feel dark, as if I’m hiding myself. But I don’t know why. Where are my explanations? Don’t they come free? Where are the answers? Where are the words?
They...
Giving out too many details again; ignore.
I think we did too much for his first day back, but he couldn’t do anything while he was gone because he was rooming for two twelve year olds.
I have no parents for the rest of the week. =]
He came over today, but he couldn’t stay long.
And we couldn’t resist. I just missed him too fucking much.
I missed everything about him.
talking to him
laughing with him
feeling his...
My boyfriend got back from Europe last night, so...
Holy shit. I missed him way too much.
I smiled all day because he was back.
I looked like a dumb ass fool, but he was back.
I'm done talking about this. It's just upsetting...
Tomorrow is the last day we have until he goes to Europe for over a week.
What will I do during the vacation?
I already miss him.
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Tuesday.
We did serious physical things, I mean I was in the mood.
He’s leaving friday.
But he stopped.
He doesn’t want to do this to me.
Tell me he’s not sure if he wants a serious relationship and then do serious things with me. That’s what I yelled at him for on Monday.
I wish this wasn’t so hard.
He doesn’t believe in breaks or breaking up and getting back...
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Monday.
He told me he wants us to hang out less because he doesn’t want us to get sick of each other. He doesn’t want us to be in love for only six months, but continue to date because we feel we have to.
He doesn’t want us to break up and not still be friends.
He doesn’t know if he wants a serious relationship because he doesn’t know if he loves me or not. He believes that...
I fucking hate relationships.
They make me feel so needy and pathetic.
They make me wait around all day for a stupid fucking text.
Which I never get until I text them.
I hate it so much.
I feel so vulnerable and weak.
I hate what it does to me.
I don’t want to be dating him anymore.
Not since he’s questioning whether or not he wants a serious relationship.
But I don’t want to lose him either.
I...
I'm so fucking pathetic.
pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic. pathetic....
My accepting the fact that our relationship has...
is a coping method. So I won’t be extremely upset if it does. It’s just to let myself down. So the pain won’t be so great. So I can look at myself and say, hey! You knew it could happen.
It doesn’t make sense, but I’m a planner.
TMI
Also. We did thing Saturday Night… like below the waist things.
Things that I had said no to because I wasn’t feeling well.
Things that I gave into because I knew I wanted it.
I wasn’t mad at him because I loved it.
I was mad at myself for not being able to fight him, and stand up for myself.
I told him I felt like my opinion didn’t matter.
And now he’s ashamed,...
Serious relationship post.
Mike read my essay about our relationship.
He worries that I expect our relationship to fail, and since I think that, that it will fail.
I couldn’t for the life of me get the idea across that I just had to plan for the chance that it does fail. I have to be prepared incase it does. I don’t want it to fall. I’m petrified of it failing, but still there is that chance.
Each day...
January 2010
27 posts
Sometimes I get the feeling that he only wants me...
I’ve never had so many emotions and trust in someone.
What if this is a joke to him. He says it isn’t, but his actions show otherwise.
I miss him already.